feeling horrible.
I think i am "pmsing " la... having frequent moodswings, easily agitated, jealous, annoyed.
haiz, i refuse to think that i am a loser la. bloody bastard from acjc said those mean things to me...burn in hell la. I know my prelim results suck la. but i love music, and i know i am not dumb. Perhaps lazy but not recently...at least since prelims.
Cgss,scgs,fairfield,acs,Mgs..... Flooding the grounds of acjc... Irks me,eeks me, hurts me. Just look at the bloody happy faces on those people face la. although they consider themselves to be stress up from sch, i think its already an achivement to be in there for first 3 months.
Playing in acjc band, being 1 of the 5 oboists, spending so many hours there.... i hope when the results are out, my effort wont be wasted man. Moreover, will they accept me. shucks.
Hey...have u ever put ur heart,soul,mind into Something or Someone and that it hurts u so badly even though u keep telling urself it will be beneficial someday.Can it be considered as an escape from reality or that..... the person is a Glutton for Pain.